tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27350730906042983512024-03-07T23:16:39.691-08:00Starting OverArmy_Wife_9http://www.blogger.com/profile/06917812623156933590noreply@blogger.comBlogger62125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2735073090604298351.post-22805459867117599022011-01-02T19:09:00.000-08:002011-01-02T19:28:56.350-08:002010 RecapI know I've been a terrible blogger but I'm going to try to be better...when I have the time :(<br /><br />Looking back over 2010 I realize I'm a much different person now than I was at the beginning of the year. I'm a much stronger person and I have an amazing man to think for that! To recap my year:<br /><br />-I finished my year at 500.01 miles run. Didn't exactly reach my goal of 1000 miles but with the tough year I had I'll gladly take 500.<br /><br />-I was promoted to Asst. Human Resources Manager.<br /><br />-I lost two wonder grandparents less than a month apart.<br /><br />-The High School softball team I coach made it to the Regional finals for the second year in a row.<br /><br />-I met an amazing man, MB, who I plan on marrying. We've actually known each since the summer of 2008 but started dating in the fall of 2010. I truly believe he is my soul mate and I can't wait to start my life with him!<br /><br /><br />I know there are so many other things that happened this year I can't begin to think of them all. Now on to my goals for 2011:<br /><br />-Run 1000 miles<br /><br />-Run my first full marathon (signed up for one in April) and four minis<br /><br />-Help my softball team reach the Regional semi-finals for the 3rd year in a row but win this time!!!<br /><br />-Continue to work hard and move up in the company I work for<br /><br />-Be a better blogger<br /><br />-Marry the love of my life and start a family<br /><br /><br />I hope every one reaches their goals for 2011...I'm off to a great start!!!!Army_Wife_9http://www.blogger.com/profile/06917812623156933590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2735073090604298351.post-20878566171081299482010-09-26T15:17:00.000-07:002010-09-26T15:25:39.294-07:00Helping Impact PeopleHow many of you out there drink energy drinks or feel tired all the time? I know I was one of those people until a good friend of mine introduced me to two amazing new products out on the market. They're call Pink (for women) and Red (for men). They're both loaded with vitamins, minerals, and antioxidants. Everyone that's tried it loves it. I take mine every day. It is much healthier for you than the energy drinks out on the market and cheaper too! You can't ask for more than that. It provides me with energy to get through the day and not be tired plus it's helped me lose a few pounds! If you're interested in more information or ordering it go to <a href="http://www.helpingimpactpeople.com/nikkinichols">www.helpingimpactpeople.com/nikkinichols</a><br /><br />Once you try it you'll be hooked!Army_Wife_9http://www.blogger.com/profile/06917812623156933590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2735073090604298351.post-44457502146200627672010-09-26T15:07:00.000-07:002010-09-26T15:15:00.657-07:00Starting OverI decided it was time to change the name of my blog. I'm no longer an Army wife so it just didn't seem right keeping the blog name. My divorce was finalized on the 10<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">th</span> of this month so I'm officially starting over in one area of my life. I'm excited and scared. I never thought I'd be 25 years old and divorced but I knew my marriage would end this way. I knew we weren't right together...I was settling. I've been doing a lot of thinking and having "me" time. I've come to the conclusion I settle with relationships because I feel guilty if I'm too happy. It's as though if I'm too happy it's like I'm forgetting about my brother. Six and a half years after he was killed, there's not a day that goes by that I don't think about him. I know I shouldn't think that way because he would want to see me happy. I wish I could talk to him and get some helpful big brother advice. But for the first time in my life I'm doing things for me and just taking the time to make myself happy instead of putting everyone <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">else's</span> feelings in front of mine. I've got to be happy by myself before I can be happy with anyone else.Army_Wife_9http://www.blogger.com/profile/06917812623156933590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2735073090604298351.post-61926992481274184462010-08-30T13:59:00.000-07:002010-08-30T14:19:31.296-07:00Rough DayWell things haven't gone smoothly since about 11 Saturday night. My pain gradually grew worse and I was having chills. But guess what, I couldn't get <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-error">ahold</span> of the on call nurse. I called 5 different times through mid day on Sunday. So I finally just went to the ER. The one good thing I can say about that visit is they made the pain go away. I got two morphine shots while I was there. Now I know what drug addicts feel like the morning after. I woke up with an awful headache this morning. It had been 7 hours since I'd last taken anything for my pain and I was having withdrawals. It was a good thing I got to work from home today so I could be comfy and lay down when I needed to. I can't wait to feel better from this surgery.Army_Wife_9http://www.blogger.com/profile/06917812623156933590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2735073090604298351.post-10088097024167145002010-08-28T16:20:00.000-07:002010-08-28T16:39:09.318-07:00What a dayThe divorce papers have been signed...<span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-error">woohoo</span>!!! And on top of that he finally moved all his stuff out. It's finally all happening. Such relief I don't have to deal with his crap any more. He's been back state side for 16 days now and he's spent over $12,000. Who seriously does that? Thank goodness I don't have to worry about that any more and I can get my name off all his accounts so I won't be responsible for his debt any more.<br /><br />My surgery went well yesterday...the doc said it was worse than what he was expecting and he found <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_1" class="blsp-spelling-error">endometriosis</span>...he said it was a good thing I decided to go ahead and have it done instead of waiting 4-5 more years because it would've been a lot worse. My stomach is so sore today...he was only suppose to do a small incision in my belly button but I woke up with three small incisions. So once again my running is put on hold for a little while.<br /><br />Hope you're having a good weekend!Army_Wife_9http://www.blogger.com/profile/06917812623156933590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2735073090604298351.post-39932730757009351632010-08-09T19:19:00.000-07:002010-08-09T19:25:24.187-07:0054 daysIn 54 days I'll be in a bikini on a beach in Hawaii...I've been out of commission on working but I decided to start back tonight even though during surgery time my doctor will probably make me take it easy...and I killed it tonight...3 mile run, 5 mile bike ride and 15 minutes on the <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">treadclimber</span>...my legs and butt are on fire! Which is a very good thing...plus maybe I'll lose this last ten pounds that's been hanging around for some time now in these 54 days...<br /><br />hope your week started off on a good note!Army_Wife_9http://www.blogger.com/profile/06917812623156933590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2735073090604298351.post-79987756796237825592010-08-08T09:17:00.000-07:002010-08-08T09:31:14.406-07:00It's been that long...I just realized my last post was on June 18<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">th</span>...wow I can't believe it's been that long...there's so much that has been going on in my life I don't even know where to start...<br /><br />First, my soon to be ex should be coming home within the next few weeks and he's agreed to sign the papers the weekend he's home...and the good news that comes along with that is the divorce will be final as soon as the judge signs it!!! <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">woohoo</span>, there's no waiting!!! I will finally be free of this nightmare!<br /><br />Secondly, my running was put on hold for a little while...I'm hoping not too much longer though...I've been having some medical problems...I was taken to the emergency room about a month and a half ago with the worst pain I've ever experienced...turns out I had an ovarian cyst rupture...even though I went through all that pain I'm almost thankful because it uncovered another problem...I was referred to my OB where they ran some more tests and now I've been referred to a fertility specialist for surgery...I have a <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">septated</span> uterus, which if you're not aware can cause major fertility problems...my first <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">appt</span>. with the specialist is this Wednesday...part of me is worried about what he might say...but if it can be fixed I'm glad I'm doing it now that way when I want to start having kids there won't be a problem...I'm just really scared he's going to tell me I won't be able to have kids...I'm keeping my fingers crossed everything will turn out <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">ok</span>.<br /><br />On top of all that, at work we are in the middle of implementation of a new payroll and hr system and we are suppose to go live on this system this payroll...<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">haha</span>, funny thing is our data hasn't even been uploaded on the new system and our training classes have been horrible! I hope our employees still get paid next week. Then I also found out that our company is getting ready to buy another company, which means.....more hours than I'm already working. I'm already at 50-55 a week...I might as well just start sleeping at work with as many hours as I'm going to be putting in.<br /><br />October cannot get here soon enough...I'll be sitting on the beach in Hawaii with a drink in my hand with no worries in the world for 8 straight days!Army_Wife_9http://www.blogger.com/profile/06917812623156933590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2735073090604298351.post-22875236502202704452010-06-18T13:57:00.000-07:002010-06-18T14:26:25.058-07:00So much going onAs soon as softball ended umpiring began...those two weekends kicked my butt but the $30 per game was very nice. Although sometimes I don't think thats enough to listen to all the complaints coming from the stands. I mean what do they expect by the time my 7th and 8th game of the day rolls around...I'm human I'm going to miss some calls especially when the heat index has been over 100 all day long. And I wish someone would please explain the philosophy of these 10 and under coaches...their team is already up 17+ runs and the other team is terrible but they will not purposedly get an out to speed the game up...seriously, do they think the other team is going to come back. At that age its about teaching the girls the game, so what is that doing to the team that is losing that bad.<br /><br />I know I complain a lot about my job put prepare for even more to come...haha...my hours are about to incase big time. My boss decided to change our payroll and HR system and she has no idea how much work and training it's going to entail. It's going to be a long summer stuck in the office. I'll try to keep the venting minimal.<br /><br />Running is going great! I'm catching up on lost miles with the training program for the full marathon. I keep finding all these races I want to do but I try reminding myself I can't overdue it. I'm just keeping my fingers crossed to stay injury free!!!<br /><br />Hope you all have a great weekend. I'm off to Indy to hang out with some amazing friends...Army_Wife_9http://www.blogger.com/profile/06917812623156933590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2735073090604298351.post-5296454375321731342010-06-07T17:37:00.000-07:002010-06-07T19:44:22.482-07:00Getting Back into the Swing of ThingsSoftball ended last Thursday and I couldn't be more proud of my girls. They finished the season as Region Runner-Up to the number 1 team in the state. We only had two seniors so I can't wait to see what next season brings.<br /><br />I've turned up the intensity on my running...I need to turn it up more if I plan on reaching my goal of a 1000 miles for the year. I hit the 200 mark early last week so I've got a lot of catching up to do. I'm bound and determined to get there.<br /><br />In the next week or so I plan on getting caught up on all the blogs and getting back into the routine of writing on here.<br /><br />I hope your Monday started off great!Army_Wife_9http://www.blogger.com/profile/06917812623156933590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2735073090604298351.post-22068089665225865602010-05-27T20:13:00.000-07:002010-05-27T20:28:40.237-07:00District ChampsI couldn't be more proud of my girls...they pulled through and won the championship game of the District tournament!!! We play our first game of <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">Regionals</span> on Monday. It sucks that it's Memorial Day but that's the way it's always been. Three more wins puts us at the State Tournament. Cross your fingers and wish us luck because we will need it...the number one ranked team in the state is in our Region.<br /><br />I've really picked up my running and feel great. I've decided to train for the marathon and I'm actually looking forward to training. I know I sound like a crazy person and I'm sure I'll loathe it in a few weeks.<br /><br />Hope you have a good holiday weekend!!!Army_Wife_9http://www.blogger.com/profile/06917812623156933590noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2735073090604298351.post-30521326940595601972010-05-16T21:11:00.000-07:002010-05-16T21:35:04.443-07:00What a WeekendLet's start with Friday night...my softball team had a ballgame and we've been playing really well but they just didn't have it but didn't play bad but when you only get one hit you can't expect to when...our number 2 pitcher was pitching that game and when she went to cover home plate on a pass ball she rolled her ankle...the parents in the stands all said they heard it pop...good news is it's not a break but no word yet if its a tear...but she's done for the rest of the season...let's hope one pitcher is all we will need...<br /><br />Saturday...I did better than expected on my 10K especially considering the four huge hills within the first 2.5 miles...they were rough but I still beat my goal time...after the race I headed to Nashville with my family and I drove <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">because</span> I was not about to ride in the back with my niece and nephew because they don't get along very well <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">haha</span>...and with the way my dad was <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">critiquing</span> my driving you'd thought I was 16 again...I swear I don't think I'll ever drive with him in the passenger seat again...but the whole reason for going to Nashville was for my dad to buy a Hummer...seriously...he's going through a mid-life crisis at the age of 69...the man already has a F450, a F150 and a motorcycle (that's part mine) and now a Hummer...he's lost his mind...<br /><br />Sunday...my driving must not be too bad because my dad let me drive the Hummer without him riding along...I loved every minute of it...another great workout tonight...I think I've talked myself into training for a full marathon...I'm actually looking forward to it!!!<br /><br />Hope your week starts off on the right foot!!!Army_Wife_9http://www.blogger.com/profile/06917812623156933590noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2735073090604298351.post-84048336552795471382010-05-10T19:40:00.000-07:002010-05-10T19:48:49.704-07:00Back in the SaddleSo I'm done with the pity party and everything is back to normal...well whatever normal is...I've been without Internet at home so I feel extremely lost and on top of that blogger has been blocked at work...I completely understand not getting on it during work hours but what about my lunch break...I think I should be entitled to look at whatever I want during that hour break...but they don't ask my opinion so I'm lost during that hour...<br /><br />Last <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-error">friday</span> I got the idea to sign up for a 10K this Saturday and a 5K the Saturday after...oh boy does it feel great to run again...I haven't been able to squeeze in hardly any running since the Mini but the past week I've been able to get a little in on the treadmill and I just feel so much better...<span id="SPELLING_ERROR_1" class="blsp-spelling-error">dreadmill</span> I never thought I'd say this but I've missed you...<br /><br />Hope your week started off goodArmy_Wife_9http://www.blogger.com/profile/06917812623156933590noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2735073090604298351.post-40900049505292210482010-05-03T10:18:00.000-07:002010-05-03T10:42:36.211-07:00Rough Couple of DaysThe big day is tomorrow...and by big day I mean the 6 year anniversary of my brother and sister-in-law's accident/death...what I'd give to be able to skip over the day entirely...there's not a day that doesn't go by that it doesn't heavily weigh on my mind...so I really don't need a whole day as a reminder...I know there will never be a day where I don't think about them or miss them but I just wish it would get easier...it's hard living with this much anger every day for 6 years...everyone else has seemed to accept it...I just can't seem to take that step and move on...I don't know what it is...I know it'll always hurt but should it still hurt just as much today as when I received the phone call from my dad that night...this has been weighing heavily on my mind the past week or so as this day keeps approaching...I know you shouldn't live with regrets because it's hard to move on and be truly happy but it's so hard when it comes to my brother...before I was born and the first few years of my life he was in the Army...then the last year or two of his life he decided to join the National Guard...the National Guard unit where he lived (Oklahoma) had just deployed so he got stationed with a unit out of Fort Knox which is only a few hours from where I lived...once a month every month my dad would always drive up to see him for the weekend he was there for training...I only went one time...I have to live with that every day of the rest of my life...knowing I decided to stay in town and be with my friends instead of going to see my brother who I only got to see once a year and if I was lucky twice...even though there was a 20 year age difference and he lived so far away pretty much my entire life we were extremely close...I'd give anything to take his place because it's not fair that his youngest two kids have to grow up without either parent...their just kids what did they do to deserve this...there's so many life experiences they are going to miss out on by not having their parents...granted they have my parents and me but that doesn't come close to making up for their parents...<br /><br />...so take time out of your schedule to spend with your loved ones or take that extra few minutes to give a hug, kiss or tell someone you love them before saying goodbye because you never know if <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-error">that'll</span> be the last time you get to see them...Army_Wife_9http://www.blogger.com/profile/06917812623156933590noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2735073090604298351.post-92010297969937945952010-04-29T10:22:00.000-07:002010-04-29T10:44:25.476-07:00ImmaturityLast night my team played one of those teams that every one hates and its not because they're really good it's because of their poor <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">sportsmanship</span>...first they hate a bunch of teenage boys taunting our outfielders, then some of their players were making fun of our girls and parents, then they intentionally hit one of our batters (mind you they already had a 8 run lead) and their first baseman made a smart ass comment of "what she going to do cry now." Seriously??? I don't understand why parents, coaches, and a town want to represent themselves this way...it's one thing to be cocky and good but then to have this poor <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_1" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">sportsmanship</span> is ridiculous...this team has always been this way even back when I played...and people wonder why kids continue to get worse year after year...I think we need to take a look at the parenting, coaching and teaching that goes on nowadays...For example with the quality of teachers in <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_2" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">today's</span> time...one of my girls told me her 20 something year old teacher had a break down during the middle of class one day and starting screaming at the kids and throwing a tantrum and hasn't been back...is this what we want our kids exposed to? I worry about my nephew moving from the <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_3" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">elementary</span> school to the middle school next year...yes I realize he can't always be babied and have his hand held through life but with his problems I'm so afraid he's going to be a kid that gets left behind because a teacher doesn't care enough to give him the attention and help he needs or maybe doesn't have the time to give him that.<br /><br />It's another game day...this should be an easy win for us but then again several of our losses should have been easy wins...<br /><br />Just think it's almost the weekend!Army_Wife_9http://www.blogger.com/profile/06917812623156933590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2735073090604298351.post-22131578778063236292010-04-28T10:45:00.000-07:002010-04-28T11:06:12.031-07:00Two WeeksSo much has happened since the last time I was able to get online and write...my life is so crazy busy right now I feel like I barely have time to sleep...and when i do sleep i dream about everything i need to get done...work is pretty much the same with my boss...<span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-error">i'm</span> working about 50 hours a week even with leaving early...<span id="SPELLING_ERROR_1" class="blsp-spelling-error">i'm</span> really hoping i can get her to agree to letting me coach one more year...next year should be their best chance of going to state...speaking of softball, our record is absolutely terrible but they don't have anyone to blame but themselves...we've really only been "beat" 4 or 5 games...but when you they make 6-10 errors in a game which is very uncharacteristic of them you cannot expect to win...but this year has also not been easy due to parents...i know you're always going to have that when you coach a team but my god you'd think the parents were the teenagers...they start more drama than the girls do themselves...it's almost not even worth it.<br /><br />everything with the divorce is kinda at a stand still...since he's deployed he won't agree to waive his rights so we can go ahead and file and have it final by the time he gets back stateside...but <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_2" class="blsp-spelling-error">i'm</span> going to have the paperwork waiting on him to get here...i know some of you might think <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_3" class="blsp-spelling-error">i'm</span> a terrible person for wanting to divorce him while he's deployed but if you knew everything that he's done you'd do the same thing...i don't want to go into detail about it because I don't want to talk bad about him even though that's what he's doing to me...it's funny though because if i wanted i could go after half of everything <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_4" class="blsp-spelling-error">i've</span> put into his savings since he's been deployed but <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_5" class="blsp-spelling-error">i'm</span> not because i don't care about the money...<span id="SPELLING_ERROR_6" class="blsp-spelling-error">i'm</span> not interested in that at all i just want out of this bad situation <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_7" class="blsp-spelling-error">i'm</span> in and I'm continuing to pay all his bills and get him out of debt as those bills keep coming in too...but though this situation <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_8" class="blsp-spelling-error">i've</span> met someone who has been a savor and is going through a similar situation...its been amazing to be able to talk with someone going through these similar emotions and situations and be able to vent to and listen to them vent...i can't even begin to describe what its meant to have this and to know that i deserve so much more and that i shouldn't settle for less...Army_Wife_9http://www.blogger.com/profile/06917812623156933590noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2735073090604298351.post-12479583512454246502010-04-14T10:51:00.000-07:002010-04-14T10:55:36.719-07:00Black Toe NailIt's official...I finally feel like a real runner! I have my first black toe nail from my race on Sunday. Never thought I'd feel this excited <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-error">haha</span>. Both my second toes are longer than my big toe so they got beat up pretty bad. The soreness is finally gone so I think I'm going to hit the treadmill tonight for an easy run. This is my only night off this week so I plan on taking it very easy. My softball team has already played 2 games this week and we have 4 more to go...whoever made our schedule sure screwed up!<br /><br />Hope your hump day is going great!Army_Wife_9http://www.blogger.com/profile/06917812623156933590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2735073090604298351.post-75165488575769049232010-04-12T10:05:00.000-07:002010-04-12T10:22:29.128-07:00Finished...barelyI completed the mini marathon yesterday! It wasn't a good race but considering how I felt I'm satisfied with my finish and I even managed to PR by over 4 minutes. I was originally expecting to PR by over 25 minutes but considering I've had the flu and a bacterial infection for 2 weeks with very little sleep due to a terrible cough I'm <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-error">ok</span> with my finish. In fact on Saturday, I coached 3 games and didn't get home until 10:30...I finally managed to stop coughing around 1 and had to be up at 4:30 Sunday morning. During the race I surprisingly felt great until between miles 6 and 7...my body was exhausted and wanted to stop. I refuse to be a <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_1" class="blsp-spelling-error">DNF</span>...so I struggled through the last half of the race. Good news though, my friend is hooked now! We are already planning our next one.<br /><br />Now for a bit of ranting...so usually at the beginning of each week I let my boss know what days I need to leave early for games. Now mind you either I work on the weekends, come in early during the week, or work through my lunch to make up this time even though technically I don't have to since I salaried. Plus I usually still end up with more than 40 hours a week. Well this morning when I went to give her my schedule she blew up. Granted I realize that this week it's a bit much (4 days of leaving early), but she has know what my schedule is like during the few months of our season. This is the third year I've coached. She pretty much told me she's not going to allow me to coach next year. Needless to say I'm pissed! I get all my work done, work more hours than I'm suppose to and she even said it's not a problem within our department but it's how others see it with me leaving early. Then what did she turn around and do...take a long lunch so she can run errands...seriously? And it's not like this is the first time...she does this at least once a week plus if our president isn't here (her boss) she leaves early or will be gone socializing throughout the building half of the day! Well if she wants to stick to her guns on this looks like I'll be looking for another job because I love coaching too much to give it up for a job I hate!Army_Wife_9http://www.blogger.com/profile/06917812623156933590noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2735073090604298351.post-10981169229762365322010-04-06T14:55:00.000-07:002010-04-06T15:04:16.168-07:00Caged AnimalI feel like a caged animal...I'm still stuck in my house sick! Good news though, the fever hasn't shown its ugly face in over 24 hours which means I'm going back to work tomorrow! I never thought I'd be happy to go back. I've actually been working a few hours each night when no one is at the office. That way I get get some work done without spreading my germs. Too bad my boss won't look at it as I'm dedicated to my job and deserve a raise.<br /><br />I've decided come hell or high water I'm still going to complete my race on Sunday even if I have to walk the majority of it. I know I'm going to be very weak so I'm expecting my time to be horrible but I signed up to complete it with my niece and one of my best friends, so that's what I'm going to do. This is my best friend's first mini and she's scared to death. So I'm going to go and complete this with her.<br /><br />Hope everyone is enjoying this amazing weather!Army_Wife_9http://www.blogger.com/profile/06917812623156933590noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2735073090604298351.post-85441115850864204432010-04-03T16:27:00.000-07:002010-04-03T16:32:10.235-07:00Still SickI'm still sick and completely miserable. The fever hasn't completely gone away but at least it isn't 102 anymore. The weather has been so nice this week and I haven't gotten to take advantage of it. Looks like I'll be going back to the doctor on Monday...hopefully they can fix me this time. I hope everyone is healthy and not having to suffer this misery...enjoy the sunshine!Army_Wife_9http://www.blogger.com/profile/06917812623156933590noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2735073090604298351.post-24977296336336280822010-03-30T18:11:00.000-07:002010-03-30T18:15:55.935-07:00Sick!My mini marathon race is in 12 days and I'm stuck at home with the flu and have been since Saturday. Seriously!?! I was looking forward to this being a great race for me and now I'm going to be lucky to have the energy to even complete it. I'm on day four of a 100+ fever...at least its not 102 any more. That's extremely high for me because I'm normally at a 97.2. I had to miss one of the biggest games for my team tonight...it killed me having to listen to it on the radio. Number 2 team in the state beat us 10-2 (those are the first runs scored on them all year). We will get our chance at them in a few weeks with hopefully our entire team healthy. The bug I have is going around the whole team...I think it's just about got every single one of them! Well back to bed for me.Army_Wife_9http://www.blogger.com/profile/06917812623156933590noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2735073090604298351.post-78060537632813314972010-03-25T11:06:00.000-07:002010-03-25T11:21:31.775-07:00I did it...I finally let it all out...my husband and I have fought over things for a long time and like I said in my last post I don't know why I've put up with a lot of the things I have with him...he knows how unhappy I've been...I finally let it all out and laid it on the line for him yesterday...at first he tried to say he had no idea how unhappy I was that he must have been blind to it the entire time...now he's finally admitting everything he's done and how he knew the things he's done to me were wrong and he knows how many chances I've given him...with everything he admitted to me I can't believe he still wants me to give him another chance...my heart is just not in it...I never thought I'd be in this situation that I am...Army_Wife_9http://www.blogger.com/profile/06917812623156933590noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2735073090604298351.post-2732853599091212162010-03-20T19:26:00.000-07:002010-03-20T19:56:10.219-07:00Life Decisions<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">Ok</span> so I've been away for a little while. I've been really thinking seriously about where I am in my life and how happy I am. Did I rush into getting married? Why do I put up with stuff from him that I've never put up with before? I'm the type of girl that needs the little things to know he cares. Time and time again we've discussed this but all I get is "you know I'm not like that." Or if I'm crying he chooses not to deal with it and just ignore the situation. We have trust issues...he's still in communication with his ex and does it behind my back and considered meeting up with her while home on leave while I was at work. This isn't the only time we've had an issue with other women. We even broke up for a little while right before we got engaged. I should have known then. Another key indicator was our wedding night...we got into a huge fight and slept on opposite sides of the king size hotel bed.<br /><br />I know I can't make any decisions right now especially because he haven't lived together more than 30 days. But in those 30 days I've been ready for him to leave...<br /><br />Give me the strength to make the right decisions to make myself happy above all else...Army_Wife_9http://www.blogger.com/profile/06917812623156933590noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2735073090604298351.post-56502155571664866572010-03-14T19:21:00.000-07:002010-03-14T19:33:18.687-07:00The hits keep on comingI've seen my dad cry twice in my life...once when my brother died and today. Today was the straw that broke the camel's back. My dad lost both of his parents within 6 weeks of each other and then today one of the dogs we've had for 15+ years died. Well they say bad things happen in threes so hopefully this was number three and nothing else is going to happen.<br /><br />I did my long run of the week...a 10 miler. I knew right away it wasn't going to be a good one. I barely slept last night and I woke up with major back and hamstring pain. On top of that it was sprinkling with threats of hard rain. It turned out to be half way <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">ok</span> except for the back pain. 4 weeks until my Mini Marathon...hoping to make some improvement in my pace in these last 4 weeks.Army_Wife_9http://www.blogger.com/profile/06917812623156933590noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2735073090604298351.post-69191283102998363732010-03-11T14:38:00.000-08:002010-03-11T14:56:53.178-08:00Stress, Fever Blisters and Teenage GirlsMy mom had the nerve to say to me the other day, "I don't know what you have to be stressed about." Really I thought to myself. I bit my tongue because if I'd fired back what I have to be stressed about it probably wouldn't have turned out so well. Stress...well where should I start? First and foremost my husband is deployed to a war zone and I don't hardly have any communication with him. On top of that he won't be stateside until August and won't be home until November. No stress there, right? Then we are trying to plan a vacation to Hawaii for his block leave. Plane tickets now are a mere $700 but can't purchase them now due to the army's way of deciding things. Plane tickets and hotel reservations will have to be a last minute purchase...maybe we'll end up getting a great last minute deal but I won't hold my breath. No stress there either, right? Now let's discuss my job. In my department there is me, one other lady and our boss. My not so friendly coworker is a 59 year old never been married extremely stuck in her ways woman. I can't even begin to explain to you the number of complaints I get to hear a day from other regarding anything from the color of her pen to something she over heard that she thinks was directed negatively at her. My boss is so hot and cold you never know what you're going to get from her. One day is nothing but singing your praises to the next you feel like you're such a terrible worker you're going to get fired. And that's just my department! And did I mention I work in Human Resources so all I deal with are problems from our 800 employees. No stress at work either, right? Then there's both my grandparents dying in the first two months are 2010, my niece being a pain in the butt 14 year old who gets caught drinking at school. And even though neither one of my parents mean to vent their stress to me I usually end up catching the brunt of it. Then there's the 20 teenage girls that I coach...drama city! I can't imagine why I seem so stressed out and mad at the world all the time can you?<br /><br />Fever blisters...if you've never had to experience theses horrendous things be very grateful. I only get them when my lips get burnt from the sun. Thank goodness they aren't stress related! Last weekend I sat outside for several hours watching a couple softball games...well low and behold I got burnt! When I woke up Wednesday morning I thought I had Mt. Saint <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-error">Helens</span> sitting on my lip. Go away please!!!!!<br /><br />Hope your week has been smooth sailing compared to mine...Army_Wife_9http://www.blogger.com/profile/06917812623156933590noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2735073090604298351.post-42602577772257669742010-03-06T17:58:00.000-08:002010-03-06T18:04:04.276-08:00100 milesI finally hit the 100 mile marker for 2010. I know I'm about 77 miles off pace to reach my goal of 1000 miles in 2010 but I'm excited to meet this first mile stone. I'm cutting myself a break for being so far behind because my grandma died in January, my husband was home for just a little over two weeks, and then my granddad died in February. So considering everything that has happened in the first two months I'm going to pat myself on the back for reaching 100 miles. I'm hoping to make up the gap a lot this month.Army_Wife_9http://www.blogger.com/profile/06917812623156933590noreply@blogger.com2