It's been that long...

I just realized my last post was on June 18th...wow I can't believe it's been that long...there's so much that has been going on in my life I don't even know where to start...

First, my soon to be ex should be coming home within the next few weeks and he's agreed to sign the papers the weekend he's home...and the good news that comes along with that is the divorce will be final as soon as the judge signs it!!! woohoo, there's no waiting!!! I will finally be free of this nightmare!

Secondly, my running was put on hold for a little while...I'm hoping not too much longer though...I've been having some medical problems...I was taken to the emergency room about a month and a half ago with the worst pain I've ever experienced...turns out I had an ovarian cyst rupture...even though I went through all that pain I'm almost thankful because it uncovered another problem...I was referred to my OB where they ran some more tests and now I've been referred to a fertility specialist for surgery...I have a septated uterus, which if you're not aware can cause major fertility problems...my first appt. with the specialist is this Wednesday...part of me is worried about what he might say...but if it can be fixed I'm glad I'm doing it now that way when I want to start having kids there won't be a problem...I'm just really scared he's going to tell me I won't be able to have kids...I'm keeping my fingers crossed everything will turn out ok.

On top of all that, at work we are in the middle of implementation of a new payroll and hr system and we are suppose to go live on this system this payroll...haha, funny thing is our data hasn't even been uploaded on the new system and our training classes have been horrible! I hope our employees still get paid next week. Then I also found out that our company is getting ready to buy another company, which means.....more hours than I'm already working. I'm already at 50-55 a week...I might as well just start sleeping at work with as many hours as I'm going to be putting in.

October cannot get here soon enough...I'll be sitting on the beach in Hawaii with a drink in my hand with no worries in the world for 8 straight days!

So much going on

As soon as softball ended umpiring began...those two weekends kicked my butt but the $30 per game was very nice. Although sometimes I don't think thats enough to listen to all the complaints coming from the stands. I mean what do they expect by the time my 7th and 8th game of the day rolls around...I'm human I'm going to miss some calls especially when the heat index has been over 100 all day long. And I wish someone would please explain the philosophy of these 10 and under coaches...their team is already up 17+ runs and the other team is terrible but they will not purposedly get an out to speed the game up...seriously, do they think the other team is going to come back. At that age its about teaching the girls the game, so what is that doing to the team that is losing that bad.

I know I complain a lot about my job put prepare for even more to come...haha...my hours are about to incase big time. My boss decided to change our payroll and HR system and she has no idea how much work and training it's going to entail. It's going to be a long summer stuck in the office. I'll try to keep the venting minimal.

Running is going great! I'm catching up on lost miles with the training program for the full marathon. I keep finding all these races I want to do but I try reminding myself I can't overdue it. I'm just keeping my fingers crossed to stay injury free!!!

Hope you all have a great weekend. I'm off to Indy to hang out with some amazing friends...

Getting Back into the Swing of Things

Softball ended last Thursday and I couldn't be more proud of my girls. They finished the season as Region Runner-Up to the number 1 team in the state. We only had two seniors so I can't wait to see what next season brings.

I've turned up the intensity on my running...I need to turn it up more if I plan on reaching my goal of a 1000 miles for the year. I hit the 200 mark early last week so I've got a lot of catching up to do. I'm bound and determined to get there.

In the next week or so I plan on getting caught up on all the blogs and getting back into the routine of writing on here.

I hope your Monday started off great!

District Champs

I couldn't be more proud of my girls...they pulled through and won the championship game of the District tournament!!! We play our first game of Regionals on Monday. It sucks that it's Memorial Day but that's the way it's always been. Three more wins puts us at the State Tournament. Cross your fingers and wish us luck because we will need it...the number one ranked team in the state is in our Region.

I've really picked up my running and feel great. I've decided to train for the marathon and I'm actually looking forward to training. I know I sound like a crazy person and I'm sure I'll loathe it in a few weeks.

Hope you have a good holiday weekend!!!

What a Weekend

Let's start with Friday night...my softball team had a ballgame and we've been playing really well but they just didn't have it but didn't play bad but when you only get one hit you can't expect to when...our number 2 pitcher was pitching that game and when she went to cover home plate on a pass ball she rolled her ankle...the parents in the stands all said they heard it pop...good news is it's not a break but no word yet if its a tear...but she's done for the rest of the season...let's hope one pitcher is all we will need...

Saturday...I did better than expected on my 10K especially considering the four huge hills within the first 2.5 miles...they were rough but I still beat my goal time...after the race I headed to Nashville with my family and I drove because I was not about to ride in the back with my niece and nephew because they don't get along very well haha...and with the way my dad was critiquing my driving you'd thought I was 16 again...I swear I don't think I'll ever drive with him in the passenger seat again...but the whole reason for going to Nashville was for my dad to buy a Hummer...seriously...he's going through a mid-life crisis at the age of 69...the man already has a F450, a F150 and a motorcycle (that's part mine) and now a Hummer...he's lost his mind...

Sunday...my driving must not be too bad because my dad let me drive the Hummer without him riding along...I loved every minute of it...another great workout tonight...I think I've talked myself into training for a full marathon...I'm actually looking forward to it!!!

Hope your week starts off on the right foot!!!

Back in the Saddle

So I'm done with the pity party and everything is back to normal...well whatever normal is...I've been without Internet at home so I feel extremely lost and on top of that blogger has been blocked at work...I completely understand not getting on it during work hours but what about my lunch break...I think I should be entitled to look at whatever I want during that hour break...but they don't ask my opinion so I'm lost during that hour...

Last friday I got the idea to sign up for a 10K this Saturday and a 5K the Saturday after...oh boy does it feel great to run again...I haven't been able to squeeze in hardly any running since the Mini but the past week I've been able to get a little in on the treadmill and I just feel so much better...dreadmill I never thought I'd say this but I've missed you...

Hope your week started off good

Rough Couple of Days

The big day is tomorrow...and by big day I mean the 6 year anniversary of my brother and sister-in-law's accident/death...what I'd give to be able to skip over the day entirely...there's not a day that doesn't go by that it doesn't heavily weigh on my mind...so I really don't need a whole day as a reminder...I know there will never be a day where I don't think about them or miss them but I just wish it would get easier...it's hard living with this much anger every day for 6 years...everyone else has seemed to accept it...I just can't seem to take that step and move on...I don't know what it is...I know it'll always hurt but should it still hurt just as much today as when I received the phone call from my dad that night...this has been weighing heavily on my mind the past week or so as this day keeps approaching...I know you shouldn't live with regrets because it's hard to move on and be truly happy but it's so hard when it comes to my brother...before I was born and the first few years of my life he was in the Army...then the last year or two of his life he decided to join the National Guard...the National Guard unit where he lived (Oklahoma) had just deployed so he got stationed with a unit out of Fort Knox which is only a few hours from where I lived...once a month every month my dad would always drive up to see him for the weekend he was there for training...I only went one time...I have to live with that every day of the rest of my life...knowing I decided to stay in town and be with my friends instead of going to see my brother who I only got to see once a year and if I was lucky twice...even though there was a 20 year age difference and he lived so far away pretty much my entire life we were extremely close...I'd give anything to take his place because it's not fair that his youngest two kids have to grow up without either parent...their just kids what did they do to deserve this...there's so many life experiences they are going to miss out on by not having their parents...granted they have my parents and me but that doesn't come close to making up for their parents...

...so take time out of your schedule to spend with your loved ones or take that extra few minutes to give a hug, kiss or tell someone you love them before saying goodbye because you never know if that'll be the last time you get to see them...