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Starting Over

I decided it was time to change the name of my blog. I'm no longer an Army wife so it just didn't seem right keeping the blog name. My divorce was finalized on the 10th of this month so I'm officially starting over in one area of my life. I'm excited and scared. I never thought I'd be 25 years old and divorced but I knew my marriage would end this way. I knew we weren't right together...I was settling. I've been doing a lot of thinking and having "me" time. I've come to the conclusion I settle with relationships because I feel guilty if I'm too happy. It's as though if I'm too happy it's like I'm forgetting about my brother. Six and a half years after he was killed, there's not a day that goes by that I don't think about him. I know I shouldn't think that way because he would want to see me happy. I wish I could talk to him and get some helpful big brother advice. But for the first time in my life I'm doing things for me and just taking the time to make myself happy instead of putting everyone else's feelings in front of mine. I've got to be happy by myself before I can be happy with anyone else.

Rough Day

Well things haven't gone smoothly since about 11 Saturday night. My pain gradually grew worse and I was having chills. But guess what, I couldn't get ahold of the on call nurse. I called 5 different times through mid day on Sunday. So I finally just went to the ER. The one good thing I can say about that visit is they made the pain go away. I got two morphine shots while I was there. Now I know what drug addicts feel like the morning after. I woke up with an awful headache this morning. It had been 7 hours since I'd last taken anything for my pain and I was having withdrawals. It was a good thing I got to work from home today so I could be comfy and lay down when I needed to. I can't wait to feel better from this surgery.

What a day

The divorce papers have been signed...woohoo!!! And on top of that he finally moved all his stuff out. It's finally all happening. Such relief I don't have to deal with his crap any more. He's been back state side for 16 days now and he's spent over $12,000. Who seriously does that? Thank goodness I don't have to worry about that any more and I can get my name off all his accounts so I won't be responsible for his debt any more.

My surgery went well yesterday...the doc said it was worse than what he was expecting and he found endometriosis...he said it was a good thing I decided to go ahead and have it done instead of waiting 4-5 more years because it would've been a lot worse. My stomach is so sore today...he was only suppose to do a small incision in my belly button but I woke up with three small incisions. So once again my running is put on hold for a little while.

Hope you're having a good weekend!

54 days

In 54 days I'll be in a bikini on a beach in Hawaii...I've been out of commission on working but I decided to start back tonight even though during surgery time my doctor will probably make me take it easy...and I killed it tonight...3 mile run, 5 mile bike ride and 15 minutes on the treadclimber...my legs and butt are on fire! Which is a very good thing...plus maybe I'll lose this last ten pounds that's been hanging around for some time now in these 54 days...

hope your week started off on a good note!

It's been that long...

I just realized my last post was on June 18th...wow I can't believe it's been that long...there's so much that has been going on in my life I don't even know where to start...

First, my soon to be ex should be coming home within the next few weeks and he's agreed to sign the papers the weekend he's home...and the good news that comes along with that is the divorce will be final as soon as the judge signs it!!! woohoo, there's no waiting!!! I will finally be free of this nightmare!

Secondly, my running was put on hold for a little while...I'm hoping not too much longer though...I've been having some medical problems...I was taken to the emergency room about a month and a half ago with the worst pain I've ever experienced...turns out I had an ovarian cyst rupture...even though I went through all that pain I'm almost thankful because it uncovered another problem...I was referred to my OB where they ran some more tests and now I've been referred to a fertility specialist for surgery...I have a septated uterus, which if you're not aware can cause major fertility problems...my first appt. with the specialist is this Wednesday...part of me is worried about what he might say...but if it can be fixed I'm glad I'm doing it now that way when I want to start having kids there won't be a problem...I'm just really scared he's going to tell me I won't be able to have kids...I'm keeping my fingers crossed everything will turn out ok.

On top of all that, at work we are in the middle of implementation of a new payroll and hr system and we are suppose to go live on this system this payroll...haha, funny thing is our data hasn't even been uploaded on the new system and our training classes have been horrible! I hope our employees still get paid next week. Then I also found out that our company is getting ready to buy another company, which means.....more hours than I'm already working. I'm already at 50-55 a week...I might as well just start sleeping at work with as many hours as I'm going to be putting in.

October cannot get here soon enough...I'll be sitting on the beach in Hawaii with a drink in my hand with no worries in the world for 8 straight days!

So much going on

As soon as softball ended umpiring began...those two weekends kicked my butt but the $30 per game was very nice. Although sometimes I don't think thats enough to listen to all the complaints coming from the stands. I mean what do they expect by the time my 7th and 8th game of the day rolls around...I'm human I'm going to miss some calls especially when the heat index has been over 100 all day long. And I wish someone would please explain the philosophy of these 10 and under coaches...their team is already up 17+ runs and the other team is terrible but they will not purposedly get an out to speed the game up...seriously, do they think the other team is going to come back. At that age its about teaching the girls the game, so what is that doing to the team that is losing that bad.

I know I complain a lot about my job put prepare for even more to come...haha...my hours are about to incase big time. My boss decided to change our payroll and HR system and she has no idea how much work and training it's going to entail. It's going to be a long summer stuck in the office. I'll try to keep the venting minimal.

Running is going great! I'm catching up on lost miles with the training program for the full marathon. I keep finding all these races I want to do but I try reminding myself I can't overdue it. I'm just keeping my fingers crossed to stay injury free!!!

Hope you all have a great weekend. I'm off to Indy to hang out with some amazing friends...

Getting Back into the Swing of Things

Softball ended last Thursday and I couldn't be more proud of my girls. They finished the season as Region Runner-Up to the number 1 team in the state. We only had two seniors so I can't wait to see what next season brings.

I've turned up the intensity on my running...I need to turn it up more if I plan on reaching my goal of a 1000 miles for the year. I hit the 200 mark early last week so I've got a lot of catching up to do. I'm bound and determined to get there.

In the next week or so I plan on getting caught up on all the blogs and getting back into the routine of writing on here.

I hope your Monday started off great!

District Champs

I couldn't be more proud of my girls...they pulled through and won the championship game of the District tournament!!! We play our first game of Regionals on Monday. It sucks that it's Memorial Day but that's the way it's always been. Three more wins puts us at the State Tournament. Cross your fingers and wish us luck because we will need it...the number one ranked team in the state is in our Region.

I've really picked up my running and feel great. I've decided to train for the marathon and I'm actually looking forward to training. I know I sound like a crazy person and I'm sure I'll loathe it in a few weeks.

Hope you have a good holiday weekend!!!

What a Weekend

Let's start with Friday night...my softball team had a ballgame and we've been playing really well but they just didn't have it but didn't play bad but when you only get one hit you can't expect to when...our number 2 pitcher was pitching that game and when she went to cover home plate on a pass ball she rolled her ankle...the parents in the stands all said they heard it pop...good news is it's not a break but no word yet if its a tear...but she's done for the rest of the season...let's hope one pitcher is all we will need...

Saturday...I did better than expected on my 10K especially considering the four huge hills within the first 2.5 miles...they were rough but I still beat my goal time...after the race I headed to Nashville with my family and I drove because I was not about to ride in the back with my niece and nephew because they don't get along very well haha...and with the way my dad was critiquing my driving you'd thought I was 16 again...I swear I don't think I'll ever drive with him in the passenger seat again...but the whole reason for going to Nashville was for my dad to buy a Hummer...seriously...he's going through a mid-life crisis at the age of 69...the man already has a F450, a F150 and a motorcycle (that's part mine) and now a Hummer...he's lost his mind...

Sunday...my driving must not be too bad because my dad let me drive the Hummer without him riding along...I loved every minute of it...another great workout tonight...I think I've talked myself into training for a full marathon...I'm actually looking forward to it!!!

Hope your week starts off on the right foot!!!

Back in the Saddle

So I'm done with the pity party and everything is back to normal...well whatever normal is...I've been without Internet at home so I feel extremely lost and on top of that blogger has been blocked at work...I completely understand not getting on it during work hours but what about my lunch break...I think I should be entitled to look at whatever I want during that hour break...but they don't ask my opinion so I'm lost during that hour...

Last friday I got the idea to sign up for a 10K this Saturday and a 5K the Saturday after...oh boy does it feel great to run again...I haven't been able to squeeze in hardly any running since the Mini but the past week I've been able to get a little in on the treadmill and I just feel so much better...dreadmill I never thought I'd say this but I've missed you...

Hope your week started off good

Rough Couple of Days

The big day is tomorrow...and by big day I mean the 6 year anniversary of my brother and sister-in-law's accident/death...what I'd give to be able to skip over the day entirely...there's not a day that doesn't go by that it doesn't heavily weigh on my mind...so I really don't need a whole day as a reminder...I know there will never be a day where I don't think about them or miss them but I just wish it would get easier...it's hard living with this much anger every day for 6 years...everyone else has seemed to accept it...I just can't seem to take that step and move on...I don't know what it is...I know it'll always hurt but should it still hurt just as much today as when I received the phone call from my dad that night...this has been weighing heavily on my mind the past week or so as this day keeps approaching...I know you shouldn't live with regrets because it's hard to move on and be truly happy but it's so hard when it comes to my brother...before I was born and the first few years of my life he was in the Army...then the last year or two of his life he decided to join the National Guard...the National Guard unit where he lived (Oklahoma) had just deployed so he got stationed with a unit out of Fort Knox which is only a few hours from where I lived...once a month every month my dad would always drive up to see him for the weekend he was there for training...I only went one time...I have to live with that every day of the rest of my life...knowing I decided to stay in town and be with my friends instead of going to see my brother who I only got to see once a year and if I was lucky twice...even though there was a 20 year age difference and he lived so far away pretty much my entire life we were extremely close...I'd give anything to take his place because it's not fair that his youngest two kids have to grow up without either parent...their just kids what did they do to deserve this...there's so many life experiences they are going to miss out on by not having their parents...granted they have my parents and me but that doesn't come close to making up for their parents...

...so take time out of your schedule to spend with your loved ones or take that extra few minutes to give a hug, kiss or tell someone you love them before saying goodbye because you never know if that'll be the last time you get to see them...

Immaturity

Last night my team played one of those teams that every one hates and its not because they're really good it's because of their poor sportsmanship...first they hate a bunch of teenage boys taunting our outfielders, then some of their players were making fun of our girls and parents, then they intentionally hit one of our batters (mind you they already had a 8 run lead) and their first baseman made a smart ass comment of "what she going to do cry now." Seriously??? I don't understand why parents, coaches, and a town want to represent themselves this way...it's one thing to be cocky and good but then to have this poor sportsmanship is ridiculous...this team has always been this way even back when I played...and people wonder why kids continue to get worse year after year...I think we need to take a look at the parenting, coaching and teaching that goes on nowadays...For example with the quality of teachers in today's time...one of my girls told me her 20 something year old teacher had a break down during the middle of class one day and starting screaming at the kids and throwing a tantrum and hasn't been back...is this what we want our kids exposed to? I worry about my nephew moving from the elementary school to the middle school next year...yes I realize he can't always be babied and have his hand held through life but with his problems I'm so afraid he's going to be a kid that gets left behind because a teacher doesn't care enough to give him the attention and help he needs or maybe doesn't have the time to give him that.

It's another game day...this should be an easy win for us but then again several of our losses should have been easy wins...

Just think it's almost the weekend!

Two Weeks

So much has happened since the last time I was able to get online and write...my life is so crazy busy right now I feel like I barely have time to sleep...and when i do sleep i dream about everything i need to get done...work is pretty much the same with my boss...i'm working about 50 hours a week even with leaving early...i'm really hoping i can get her to agree to letting me coach one more year...next year should be their best chance of going to state...speaking of softball, our record is absolutely terrible but they don't have anyone to blame but themselves...we've really only been "beat" 4 or 5 games...but when you they make 6-10 errors in a game which is very uncharacteristic of them you cannot expect to win...but this year has also not been easy due to parents...i know you're always going to have that when you coach a team but my god you'd think the parents were the teenagers...they start more drama than the girls do themselves...it's almost not even worth it.

everything with the divorce is kinda at a stand still...since he's deployed he won't agree to waive his rights so we can go ahead and file and have it final by the time he gets back stateside...but i'm going to have the paperwork waiting on him to get here...i know some of you might think i'm a terrible person for wanting to divorce him while he's deployed but if you knew everything that he's done you'd do the same thing...i don't want to go into detail about it because I don't want to talk bad about him even though that's what he's doing to me...it's funny though because if i wanted i could go after half of everything i've put into his savings since he's been deployed but i'm not because i don't care about the money...i'm not interested in that at all i just want out of this bad situation i'm in and I'm continuing to pay all his bills and get him out of debt as those bills keep coming in too...but though this situation i've met someone who has been a savor and is going through a similar situation...its been amazing to be able to talk with someone going through these similar emotions and situations and be able to vent to and listen to them vent...i can't even begin to describe what its meant to have this and to know that i deserve so much more and that i shouldn't settle for less...

Black Toe Nail

It's official...I finally feel like a real runner! I have my first black toe nail from my race on Sunday. Never thought I'd feel this excited haha. Both my second toes are longer than my big toe so they got beat up pretty bad. The soreness is finally gone so I think I'm going to hit the treadmill tonight for an easy run. This is my only night off this week so I plan on taking it very easy. My softball team has already played 2 games this week and we have 4 more to go...whoever made our schedule sure screwed up!

Hope your hump day is going great!

Finished...barely

I completed the mini marathon yesterday! It wasn't a good race but considering how I felt I'm satisfied with my finish and I even managed to PR by over 4 minutes. I was originally expecting to PR by over 25 minutes but considering I've had the flu and a bacterial infection for 2 weeks with very little sleep due to a terrible cough I'm ok with my finish. In fact on Saturday, I coached 3 games and didn't get home until 10:30...I finally managed to stop coughing around 1 and had to be up at 4:30 Sunday morning. During the race I surprisingly felt great until between miles 6 and 7...my body was exhausted and wanted to stop. I refuse to be a DNF...so I struggled through the last half of the race. Good news though, my friend is hooked now! We are already planning our next one.

Now for a bit of ranting...so usually at the beginning of each week I let my boss know what days I need to leave early for games. Now mind you either I work on the weekends, come in early during the week, or work through my lunch to make up this time even though technically I don't have to since I salaried. Plus I usually still end up with more than 40 hours a week. Well this morning when I went to give her my schedule she blew up. Granted I realize that this week it's a bit much (4 days of leaving early), but she has know what my schedule is like during the few months of our season. This is the third year I've coached. She pretty much told me she's not going to allow me to coach next year. Needless to say I'm pissed! I get all my work done, work more hours than I'm suppose to and she even said it's not a problem within our department but it's how others see it with me leaving early. Then what did she turn around and do...take a long lunch so she can run errands...seriously? And it's not like this is the first time...she does this at least once a week plus if our president isn't here (her boss) she leaves early or will be gone socializing throughout the building half of the day! Well if she wants to stick to her guns on this looks like I'll be looking for another job because I love coaching too much to give it up for a job I hate!

Caged Animal

I feel like a caged animal...I'm still stuck in my house sick! Good news though, the fever hasn't shown its ugly face in over 24 hours which means I'm going back to work tomorrow! I never thought I'd be happy to go back. I've actually been working a few hours each night when no one is at the office. That way I get get some work done without spreading my germs. Too bad my boss won't look at it as I'm dedicated to my job and deserve a raise.

I've decided come hell or high water I'm still going to complete my race on Sunday even if I have to walk the majority of it. I know I'm going to be very weak so I'm expecting my time to be horrible but I signed up to complete it with my niece and one of my best friends, so that's what I'm going to do. This is my best friend's first mini and she's scared to death. So I'm going to go and complete this with her.

Hope everyone is enjoying this amazing weather!

Still Sick

I'm still sick and completely miserable. The fever hasn't completely gone away but at least it isn't 102 anymore. The weather has been so nice this week and I haven't gotten to take advantage of it. Looks like I'll be going back to the doctor on Monday...hopefully they can fix me this time. I hope everyone is healthy and not having to suffer this misery...enjoy the sunshine!

Sick!

My mini marathon race is in 12 days and I'm stuck at home with the flu and have been since Saturday. Seriously!?! I was looking forward to this being a great race for me and now I'm going to be lucky to have the energy to even complete it. I'm on day four of a 100+ fever...at least its not 102 any more. That's extremely high for me because I'm normally at a 97.2. I had to miss one of the biggest games for my team tonight...it killed me having to listen to it on the radio. Number 2 team in the state beat us 10-2 (those are the first runs scored on them all year). We will get our chance at them in a few weeks with hopefully our entire team healthy. The bug I have is going around the whole team...I think it's just about got every single one of them! Well back to bed for me.

I did it...

I finally let it all out...my husband and I have fought over things for a long time and like I said in my last post I don't know why I've put up with a lot of the things I have with him...he knows how unhappy I've been...I finally let it all out and laid it on the line for him yesterday...at first he tried to say he had no idea how unhappy I was that he must have been blind to it the entire time...now he's finally admitting everything he's done and how he knew the things he's done to me were wrong and he knows how many chances I've given him...with everything he admitted to me I can't believe he still wants me to give him another chance...my heart is just not in it...I never thought I'd be in this situation that I am...

Life Decisions

Ok so I've been away for a little while. I've been really thinking seriously about where I am in my life and how happy I am. Did I rush into getting married? Why do I put up with stuff from him that I've never put up with before? I'm the type of girl that needs the little things to know he cares. Time and time again we've discussed this but all I get is "you know I'm not like that." Or if I'm crying he chooses not to deal with it and just ignore the situation. We have trust issues...he's still in communication with his ex and does it behind my back and considered meeting up with her while home on leave while I was at work. This isn't the only time we've had an issue with other women. We even broke up for a little while right before we got engaged. I should have known then. Another key indicator was our wedding night...we got into a huge fight and slept on opposite sides of the king size hotel bed.

I know I can't make any decisions right now especially because he haven't lived together more than 30 days. But in those 30 days I've been ready for him to leave...

Give me the strength to make the right decisions to make myself happy above all else...

The hits keep on coming

I've seen my dad cry twice in my life...once when my brother died and today. Today was the straw that broke the camel's back. My dad lost both of his parents within 6 weeks of each other and then today one of the dogs we've had for 15+ years died. Well they say bad things happen in threes so hopefully this was number three and nothing else is going to happen.

I did my long run of the week...a 10 miler. I knew right away it wasn't going to be a good one. I barely slept last night and I woke up with major back and hamstring pain. On top of that it was sprinkling with threats of hard rain. It turned out to be half way ok except for the back pain. 4 weeks until my Mini Marathon...hoping to make some improvement in my pace in these last 4 weeks.

Stress, Fever Blisters and Teenage Girls

My mom had the nerve to say to me the other day, "I don't know what you have to be stressed about." Really I thought to myself. I bit my tongue because if I'd fired back what I have to be stressed about it probably wouldn't have turned out so well. Stress...well where should I start? First and foremost my husband is deployed to a war zone and I don't hardly have any communication with him. On top of that he won't be stateside until August and won't be home until November. No stress there, right? Then we are trying to plan a vacation to Hawaii for his block leave. Plane tickets now are a mere $700 but can't purchase them now due to the army's way of deciding things. Plane tickets and hotel reservations will have to be a last minute purchase...maybe we'll end up getting a great last minute deal but I won't hold my breath. No stress there either, right? Now let's discuss my job. In my department there is me, one other lady and our boss. My not so friendly coworker is a 59 year old never been married extremely stuck in her ways woman. I can't even begin to explain to you the number of complaints I get to hear a day from other regarding anything from the color of her pen to something she over heard that she thinks was directed negatively at her. My boss is so hot and cold you never know what you're going to get from her. One day is nothing but singing your praises to the next you feel like you're such a terrible worker you're going to get fired. And that's just my department! And did I mention I work in Human Resources so all I deal with are problems from our 800 employees. No stress at work either, right? Then there's both my grandparents dying in the first two months are 2010, my niece being a pain in the butt 14 year old who gets caught drinking at school. And even though neither one of my parents mean to vent their stress to me I usually end up catching the brunt of it. Then there's the 20 teenage girls that I coach...drama city! I can't imagine why I seem so stressed out and mad at the world all the time can you?

Fever blisters...if you've never had to experience theses horrendous things be very grateful. I only get them when my lips get burnt from the sun. Thank goodness they aren't stress related! Last weekend I sat outside for several hours watching a couple softball games...well low and behold I got burnt! When I woke up Wednesday morning I thought I had Mt. Saint Helens sitting on my lip. Go away please!!!!!

Hope your week has been smooth sailing compared to mine...

100 miles

I finally hit the 100 mile marker for 2010. I know I'm about 77 miles off pace to reach my goal of 1000 miles in 2010 but I'm excited to meet this first mile stone. I'm cutting myself a break for being so far behind because my grandma died in January, my husband was home for just a little over two weeks, and then my granddad died in February. So considering everything that has happened in the first two months I'm going to pat myself on the back for reaching 100 miles. I'm hoping to make up the gap a lot this month.

Computer Problems

More computer problems...I'm going to blame the viruses I've been getting on facebook. The only websites I really go to at home our this one and facebook. I think I just might give up facebook for a while. I don't really use it so there's really no point on going to the webpage. So goodbye facebook, well at least until I can't live without you any more. It's probably a good thing I haven't had access to my blog because there would have been a lot of venting and I know everyone has problems in their lives and don't want to hear all about mine, but I'm sure it'll come up again. So you're not missing out on anything.

Looks like I won't be hearing from my hubby for a while. Their satellite phone is broke once again and they are only allowed to use the internet twice a month. Really? Who makes up these rules??? We hit our 200 day mark yesterday! I cannot believe it's already been that long. We also found out we will actually be living together in November. I can't wait to say goodbye to Fort Bragg for good and hello Fort Campbell! I'm hoping to talk him into shipping overseas the next reenlistment but he's not in agreement. I've got 5 years to change his mind!

5 weeks left of training for my mini...it's time to buckle down and get serious!

Good times, where did you go?

If it's not one thing it's another. My grandmother died about a month and a half ago, then hubby had to leave to go back to Afghanistan, then my stupid 14 year old niece got caught drinking at school and is suspended for 5 days and will spend the rest of the year at the "bad" kids school, and then my granddad died last night. With my granddad's death it feels like I'm losing a lot more. They lived in the country out on their farm. This is where I learned to shoot a gun, would practice pitching and hitting in their old pole barn, had family get to togethers, and some of my last memories of my brother were there on the farm. No one in the family wants to keep the farm or the house so it's being sold. If we knew this is where we would live we could buy the house and do the renovations needed but who knows where the army could send us.

I'm Back...

I thought after my husband left I'd be right back into the swing of things in bloggy land, however, my husband managed to get numerous viruses on my computer. It's finally been fixed and I've informed him he's only allowed to use his computer when he comes home! This is the third time after all!

I know I promised pictures too...well I cannot for the life of me find the cables to upload my pictures. I haven't really gotten a chance to look either. With all the bad weather we've been having I've been living at my parent's house. That way I can ride to work with my mom. The weather is looking better and I've moved back home finally so I should have the pictures up soon. I would say tonight but practice has officially begun so I won't get home until 9:00, just in time to watch Castle. So maybe during commercials if the cable can be located.

But I'll leave you with a question. Has facebook or myspace or any other social networking affected your relationship? Or thoughts on these networks???

Getting Excited

Hubby will be home in less than 48 hours!!! I cannot believe it's already that time. I didn't get anything done today in preparing for his arrival except for buying a new camera battery charger. I ended up sleeping til 10 this morning because I spent 3 hours emailing with hubby during the night. I got my long run in for the week...5 miles with 2 enormous hills! Watched the UK game...way to stay undefeated! Then spent 5 hours at the hospital. My granddad just doesn't want to live without my grandma. He's stopped eating and won't hardly get out of bed. He passed out today (the 2nd time this week) and started having something similar to seizures. I can completely understand him not wanting to live, he'll be 94 in a month and they were married for 71 years.

Busy day tomorrow! I might be MIA for the next 2 weeks :)

Failed

When that alarm went off at 5:15 this morning I could not drag myself out of bed to hit the treadmill. I wish I was back in college when 6 AM workouts were mandatory. Or if my running buddies actually lived near me instead of 2.5+ hours away. I know if I had to meet someone at a certain time to get my workout in I'd get up. I just like my sleep too much to get up on my own. So it looks like I'll be hitting the treadmill as soon as I get off.

I can't believe it's been 12 days since I've heard from hubby. The days are flying by! He could be home this time next week!!! With everything that's been going on with my grandma the house is a wreck...it's going to be a busy weekend with getting everything in order for his arrival plus I have to squeeze in a few hours of work.

I need some advice...I can't decide if I want anyone to go with me to pick up my hubby from the airport. Part of me wants him all to myself those first few hours, but then the other part of me who loves pictures wants someone there to take pictures those first few minutes (you all know what cute pictures come from those moments). What should I do????

Unmotivated

I feel so run down after these past two days of being on my feet, hugging every single person that came to the funeral home, making small talk, being on kid duty, etc. I wish I didn't have to go back to work tomorrow but I'll get some time off next week when hubby gets home! On my agenda tonight was a 3 mile run, but I was feeling so unmotivated. I managed to get a good 15 minute run in though and I felt really good. I wish I would've continued and pumped out the 3 miles but I had to get back upstairs and watch the 2nd half of the UK game (let's hope they stay undefeated). Speaking of UK Basketball...I got hubby and I tickets!!! Now let's just pray nothing changes with when he's suppose to leave Afghanistan and that he makes it here on time to go! I'll be so disappointed if it doesn't work out after everything I've gone through to find us tickets.

I'm going to try to turn over a new leaf tomorrow by getting my run done before work. I've got the alarm set and plan on passing out as soon as the game is over...Go Cats!!!

1 more week!

My hubby will be on his way home in a week! I'm so excited but so nervous at the same time...I'm just so worried that it's going to be awkward. I'm sure it will at first but then hopefully we'll jump right back into the swing of things. I'm working on trying to surprise him with UK basketball tickets one of the weekends he's home and Breaking Benjamin tickets the next weekend with his sister and her fiance.

Got a great workout in this morning...five miles! My right calf bothered me the entire time and it was swollen afterwards. It better not start acting up! I've got goals to reach and I don't want to get too far behind in my first month.

Got two long days ahead of me with the viewing and the funeral...and tomorrow is my dad's birthday...wish it could be a happier one.

The fight is over

My grandma's fight is finally over...no more suffering for her. She is now pain free watching over us with my brother.

Snow Day

I wish! Too bad we don't get snow days at work...I sure do miss being in school! However, it was our first snow of the winter...we got between 2-3 inches I believe. Not too much thank goodness...people around here freak out when there's snow on the roads. They drive like they've never driven a car before.

I just finished a good workout...3 miles and a 30 minute strength workout...just in time to watch most of the BCS. I guess I'm going to have to root for Alabama since they're in the SEC but truly I'm not a fan of either team.

Grandma's still holding on somehow...she's a strong woman I tell ya!

Heartbreak

Tonight as I stood beside my grandma's hospital bed watching her take some of her last breaths my heart broke. I watched my grandfather stare at his bride of almost 72 years. You good see the sadness in his eyes. It's already bothered him so much that she hasn't been able to sleep in the same bed as him, I cannot even imagine what it will do to him once she is gone. You can see the longing in his eyes to go with her when the time comes. She will join my brother soon and will no longer be in pain.

So Sore!

My left calf has been so sore today. I'm so happy I decided to do a short run last night while testing out the new shoes because I can't even imagine how I'd feel today if I'd done more. I really can't believe the difference these shoes made.

I completed my first kettlebell workout tonight...my legs and booty are feeling it. I can't believe how weak I felt. I need to buy an actual workout dvd...I did my own version of the exercises that came with the kettlebell.

In less than 2 weeks my hubby will be on the way home!!!

Quest to 1000 has begun

I've felt so disconnected from the blog world the past couple days. I'm finally back from my weekend trip and happy to report I purchased my first pair of shoes from Fleet Feet...Brooks Ravennas! I tested them out tonight and felt the difference. I got to talk to my hubby on my drive to Louisville Friday...it'll be the last time I hear from him until he's on his way home in 2 weeks. They've moved bases and have no electricity except a generator for the important stuff like heat! My journey to 1000+ miles has begun, didn't get in as many miles as planned this weekend but it's a start. Official training for my 2nd mini begins tomorrow!